“The past can never be erased. It is always going to be there. I don’t know who that person was, the person that said those horrible things, that person just depressed, angry at the world, felt like they would never accepted, was seeking attention, I was someone that love to seek attention, I love the shock value, fighting anger with anger. And does that making okay? Absolutely not.
What I was saying is not what I represent. I think it’s awful that you guys see me in that light. I’m so sorry for everything that I said in the past, I can never turn back time and take that moments away.
Looking back to that person, I felt like a piece of shit and what did I do? I fought back with anger, with rage. And it’s wrong. Just because someone insults you, it is not okay to fight back. But sometimes that’s how we handle things, we’re human beings. And at the end of the day, people forget that pass the money, the cars, the clothes, I’m just one tiny little person on this earth trying to make a better life for me and my family.
I’m nowhere near perfect. I’m literally the furthest thing from perfect. I made mistakes everyday. But I’ve learnt from them. The intent behind my words back then I said really horrible things back to people to hurt them, to harm them, to shock them, to let them know that, “you’re gonna call me something? I’m gonna cut you back so hard and make you feel like a piece of shit because you make me feel low.” And that’s not okay to fight words with words like that.
Even recently when people saying some fucked up to me or trying to get reaction, I do give in. I am weak, I am selfish, I have anger problem sometimes, I lashed out when people lashed out at me. Because it’s hard not to react sometimes.
I’m so sorry that any of you ever had to see me like that. It makes me want to erase myself sometimes. I looked at that and I was like I can’t believe I used to be that miserable and unhappy. I want to let you guys know that I’m sorry for ever saying those things, that doesn’t represent anything about how I feel, that is not who I am. And I apologise deep down to the core of my fucking being.”
— Jeffree Star, 2017